Define Alone

When you're surrounded by people

and you feel like you're the only one there.

I try to triumph above my stupid actions

and my selfish habits.

I'm still doomed to be stuck in the beginning of time

where nothing is wrong, but it truly is.

I live to wake up to darkness

and I go to sleep hoping to see

the deafening, final, yet peaceful light.

I'm not here

I'm not there

I'm just....me.

Look, do you see the girl I once was?

I don't.

I see the face of a hideous, forsaken

MONSTER.

She is trying to pull of the mask

of a secure, beautiful young lady.

I try and I try to forgive myself,

but it seems impossible.

You say I speak only of the bleak.

No, I speak the truth.

The story of an empty soul

that's tortured with every inched

along movement to happiness.

Do you believe in me.

I don't.

Because I'm the girl who is trying

to pull of this mask.

A fake smile

A tormented heart

Don't ask me

and I won't tell.

Another diary of a broken girl.


By: Monica